candyman7369

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 02:33:10 GMT

something easier said than done.....ppl should get together more often and play sports or sum shit, get active, today i played tackle football wit a bunch of people from moxies and i friggin loved it, i dont see y we never get out there and do shit.....so yea, just a suggestion

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 21:11:30 GMT

well, there's somethin i've wanted to do, and i'm pretty set on doin it, just depends on how many ppl i can get to go wit me, and the idea i'm throwin out there is goin to Cancun this upcomming march break, anyone interested?

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 07:18:00 GMT

i know i dont update very often and i'd hate for my once in awhile post to bea negative one but it is....

recently although i've been hangin out wit friends alot, i've been feelin really loneyl, definately a feeling i hadnt felt for a real long time, and not a feelin i'm fond of, so hopefully somethin will happen soon to rid me of that awful feeling

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 16:57:28 GMT

sooo......in arnprior, not a WHOLE lot to do, but i'm tryin to keep myself busy, on monday when we got here just kinda of stopped off at my grandma Havey's place for a bit, dad had a couple of drinks, then we met mom and sis at grandparent Shane's place (my moms parents) where we stay, so we unpacked and ate, then my dad fell asleep and me and my bro went over to the court to play ball, and later my dad showed up, we played for a bit, then the lights on the court went out around 10:30, so we stopped came back here and i just kinda showered and then watched tv and played xbox for the rest of the night....

as for yesterday, woke up watched tv for a lil bit, grabbed my bro again and went to the court followed by a swim in the lake, came back here i showered, ate, and watched a lil more tv, then had dinner and went over to my grandma Havey's place to visit for a bit, saw her new dog again, jack russel terrier named Quincy......i hate that dog, lol, agressive and high enery, and everytime trixie would sniff its crotch it's lil pink thing would come out, lol, which makes me thankful i have a female dog, well then after stayin there for a bit me, my bro, and dad decide to go over to the basketball courts, and after a tiresome 4 games, we decide to push for 1 more of american 21, and well, lol, maybe wasnt such a good idea for my dad, cuz we dont really play outs cuz theres a fence that goes all the way around the court so the ball never goes real far, and lol, i was guardin my dad under the basket, half in-half out, and he wasnt payin too much to his surroundings and pivited hard towards the net and met hard with the metal pole holding the thing up, needless to say he started to bleed instantly, and after i found out he was ok i started laughin my ass off, lol, got him slightly cleaned up with sum "butterflies" put over the cut, and when my aunt "the nurse" asked when he last had his tetnace (spelt wrong i know) shot, he decided since its been over 10 years he might as well go get that at least, and while he was there they decided to throw sum stiches in it as well, lol, so at least he's got a story when he goes back to work, lol, kinda sucks though, but oh well, did that whole thing, went back to grandma Havey's, and now both my dads sisters were there now so stayed there for a bit and now back to the Shanes where again watched tv and xbox for a bit.

today the plan is go to the lake for a bit, swim, boat, and do wutever else, maybe tubing, and then goin to grandma Havey's for dinner and thats as far as i know, but....thats wuts happened so far, so yea, ttyl buh bye!

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 23:57:57 GMT

havnt posted in awhile, havnt really had much to say, but i guess i have sumthin to say today....
I'M GOING TO BAYFEST THIS SATURDAY!!! WAHAHAHHA!!!! lol, and u know wut the best thing is? its how i'm gettin there.....on a friggin molson bus! HAHA! anyways.....sumthin that made my day, lol, also cuz i get to see one of my fav bands, and this is...BILLY TALENT!!!!

so thats my news for the day....bye bye

Thu, 12 May 2005 04:00:03 GMT

so...i asked/told joe about this, and msg'd chris about it but never got a response, and it might be too late notice for sum, but plan is to go to the beach on friday, anyone else in?

Fri, 06 May 2005 03:59:35 GMT

You scored as Mushrooms. Shrooms! You're still goin for one of the most natural drugs. You'd like to visit a whole other world, and see things you've never seen before. Fucking trippy.

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Mushrooms

75%

Alcohol

63%

None!

56%

Marijuana

56%

Cocaine

56%

Ecstacy

50%

Inhalents

44%

What's your ideal drug?
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Fri, 06 May 2005 03:56:59 GMT

Have you ever .........
check off the ones you have done with an x in the brackets

(x) smoked a cigar
( ) made out with a member of the same sex
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
(x) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) slept with more than 15 people
(x) been called a slut
( ) had a one night stand
( ) slept with someone you don't even know their name
( ) seen someone die
(x) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(x) snuck out of your parent's house
(X) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( )been arrested
(x) gone on a blind date
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(x) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
( ) thrown up in a bar
(x) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
(x) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
(x) been moshing at a concert
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) questioned your heart
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country
( ) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins

(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) danced in the rain
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
(x) been kissed under a mistletoe
( ) watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach
( ) crashed a party
(x) gone roller skating
(x) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey
( ) worn pearls
(x) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed penis in class
(x) ate dog/cat food
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) kissed a mirror
(x) sang in the shower
( ) have a little black dress
( ) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something
( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
( ) been a cheerleader...
(x) sat on a roof top
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
(x) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
( ) didn't take a shower for a week
( ) picked and ate an apple
(x) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
( ) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(x) believe in ghosts
( ) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
( ) gone streaking
( ) played ding-dong-ditch
(x) pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
(x) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
(x) caught a fish then ate it
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
( ) cried so hard you laughed
(x) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
( ) have a Britney Spears CD
(x) Forgotten someone's name
(x) slept naked
( ) French braided someone's hair
(x) gone skinny dipping

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 06:51:30 GMT

well i just posted a journal privately, just to get sum emotions/thought out, cant realy say it made me feel any better, but w/e....guess it's just the way the cookie crumbles

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 20:11:28 GMT

well i just dropped about $630 today....430 on future shop credit card to get that bitch paid off, then 100 to my mom for my monthly living or wutever, and then another 100 onto my regular credit card, sux to drop that much money and feel like u've got nuttin to show for it, but oh well.....i'll make that money back plus more b4 the month of april os over so....fuck ya? lol

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 03:51:38 GMT

well it's about quarter to midnightish, and well, i'm pretty fuckin trashed.....i guess the saddest part of it all is the fact i did it alone at home....y? i really dont know, bordeome could be it, maybe mild depression, iuno, but i got trashed none the less, and well....thats all i gotta say, so...night all, to all those i like, sleep well, to all those i love, sleep well, sweet dreams, and i hope the universe is moving in ur favour, as i'm sure it will be mine one of these days....and to all those i dislike...may u not sleep all nite, and i hope u fall in the toilet!

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 05:16:18 GMT

i got a bunch of msgs on msn and through LJ about wut this thing is that'll make me happy, and ppl's assumptions and wut not, i'm not sayin anythin about it until i feel ready to do so, so plz ppl, be patient, lol, just be happy knowing things are lookin up for me

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 19:42:34 GMT

so things suck right now, and other things are lookin up, i guess i'll start with the things that suck so that this entry ends good, lol

well, i hate this physical pain in my nose and my head and ugh, this last lil bit, since probably begginin of marchish has been awful for me, i can definately say that it's the worst thing that's happened in my life thus far, just been such an emotional and physical drain on me, and although i got kicked around while others and by myself i can proudly say i'm still standin, though i feel as if i'm still standin with a crutch, at least i aint on the ground no more, and just think, this could have been a very small fraction of wut had actually happened only if ppl could learn to control themselves and there tempers, but w/e, there are a bunch of people like that out in the world and it's not in my power to serve "justice" i feel that there is sum sort of karma in the universe, and that those people who act wrongly eventually will get wut they deserve in this life or the next so i leave it up to fate and try and forget about those issues, cuz like i said it was such a drain on me, i'm tryin to forget about it and move along with my life how i see it best fit for me.....although it sux i had to pay for all the damage dun to me...and my family, although jess was kind enough to help out with sum expenses

so anyways, sum good things in my life, i cant really get into alot of detail for now, maybe not for awhile, but thats ok, i'm pretty certain of wuts goin to happen, and am pretty excited about it, it's sumthin i've only really found out about recently and sumthin that should be happenin in the next month sumtime, i'm really excited about it, and it's sumthin i've wanted for a really long time, and when i feel it's "safe" to post about it i will, cuz it does make me alot happier that things are startin to work out for me again, but it's not really bein done for me, it's bein dun....well, like i said cant get into detail about it, just know that i'm anxious and excited for the happening in the next month, hopefully it might only take a week or two, that would be even greater, but we'll see.....thats all for now, so to all those people who deserve it, have a great day, and to all those who dont.....i hope u get food poisoning?? or just have chronic diahreah =P

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 23:34:15 GMT

so i was driving along the river earlier this afternoon...........and on my way home i started to develop this pain in my chest, right at the top, whenever i breathe in it just...well...hurts, and just feels like it's concentrated...iuno it's weird, i then came home to nap, when i woke up and took another breath all i felt was more pain and that it spread up into my throat, iuno, it's weird, i have an idea from other peoples experiences wut it could be....but it does scare me a lil bit...

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 22:46:11 GMT

well here's the thing, coment on this, and i'll fill out one for u two

List 3 things you like/love about me and 2 things you hate/despise about me (BE HONEST!!!)

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 05:51:24 GMT

depression sux ass!

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 04:10:22 GMT

well today was my nose surgury....got to the hospital at 6:30, this time everythin moved alot quicker then when i was there for my cyst....anyways, got there and got into the operating room around 10 to 8 and they straped me down to the table and hooked me up wit the IV and heart monito and shit...my doctor she showed up late, and well once she got there they switched the IV to sumthin else that put me to sleep and put oxygen mask over my face, last thing i remember was havin to cough and then i was out....i woke up in a large room afterwards, they asked how i was doin, i said in pain, then they hooked me up to sumthin else and i fell asleep, they told me they were giving me a small dose of morphene...well i woke up in a recovery room which i swear was the exact same one i was in last time, and they again asked me how i was feelin, still in pain is wut i told them, they flipped me on my side, pulled down my boxers and injected sumthin into my hip, w/e it was took forever to kick in....so fell asleep again...for w/e reason they didn't have pillows so they put blankets under my head wheich felt rock hard....and the buzzer i had to get the nurses attention didn't work, so when i wanted sumthin to drink or eat i had to wait til they came into the room....and when i had to pee, omg, waited soooo long....when i finally looked in the mirror my eyes were all bloodshot, my mom says i looked similar to the day i went in when i almost OD'd, but w/e....

so yea, got a ride home, and was in xtreme pain, had to change my bandage cuz blood was soakin through...after i got home my mom took off to pick up the siblings and when she went out she picked up my medication, so that was awesome when i got to take that, cuz it took sum pain away, but not all, i sleep most of the time....

when i changed the bandage myself i looked up my nose and say tubes in both nostrils and stiches in them too....my nose is fuckin bloated, but w/e, get this dun and over with b4 the summer or b4 it gets any worse.....

the thing that sux the most is the posibilty of missin work cuz of it, and that they said i cant be physically active for 3 weeks....for the past month or so i've dun at least one physically active thing each day, and i got in that trend, so yea, fuckin sux

but anyways, i shud lay down cuz thats when i'm most comfy, just thought i'd give ppl an update, so yea, ttyl bye bye

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 21:55:11 GMT

omg, this is too funny, and very upsetting for various reasons

You scored as Goofy. Your alter ego is Goofy! You are fun and great to be around, and you are always willing to help others. You arn't worried about embarrassing yourself, so you are one who is more willing to try new things.

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Goofy

63%

Peter Pan

56%

The Beast

50%

Sleeping Beauty

44%

Pinocchio

44%

Donald Duck

44%

Ariel

38%

Snow White

38%

Cruella De Ville

31%

Cinderella

19%

Which Disney Character is your Alter Ego?
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Sun, 10 Apr 2005 19:53:09 GMT

who knew?

You scored as Dirty Piercings. AH!!! You dirty person you! Put that away!!! Who did that for you!? Your the kinkiest of the kinkiest and probably think you're hot stuff. Well, maybe you are but that's kinda nasty. Ew. Weirdo.

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Dirty Piercings

80%

Tongue Piercing

70%

Cartilage Piercing

70%

Nipples

70%

Earlobe Piercing

60%

Labret Piercing

60%

Nose Piercing

50%

Lip Piercing

50%

Belly Button Piercing

40%

What Piercing Are You?
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Fri, 08 Apr 2005 20:14:58 GMT

well here's wut i'd like to do tomorrow nite (saturday)....i'd like to go DT, i'd like to make a stop off at woody's, cuz it's a guys b-day from my work tom nite and i said i'd stop by and buy him a shot/drink/whatever, and also well i havn't been DT in awhile and would love to go, cuz i have been makin xtra cash this week, so i do have a lil xtra to spend, so yea, if ppl wanna go i'm welcomin anyone and everyone to come out wit me, and we dont just have to go to woody's, we can go wherever, but yea, plz respond, or text me, or leave a msg on msn, or just call me damnit! do sumthin though, cuz it'll be good times, and if worse comes to worse, we could crash at my house that nite, i'm sure my rents wont care, just knowin ppl are safe and knowin we got a cab or w/e, so yea....those are the plans i'm tryin to create.....GO!

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 23:16:01 GMT

well i've got a new favourite song, and i really dont see this as a surprise, cuz for w/e reason i've always like the songs that get all "sexual" and stuff, i mean afterall....i AM a scorpio and accordin to the definition of a scorpio i dig that shit, and well....it's true, lol, anyways, here's the lyrics of the song ans it's called "Grind on me" by the group called "Pretty Ricky"

(Chorus 2x)
Baby grind on my, relax yo mind take yo time on me,
Let me get deeper shawty ride on me,
Now come and sex me till your body gets weak,
We slow grinding baby.(2x babe)

(Verse one: MaverickS)

When I hit 'em I make um say,(oh)
sex be ma day,(job)
I hit 'em in da back of my, (car)
Make 'em ride like a see,( saw)
I make um laugh and giggle
cuddle a little
suck on the nipple
lick the whip cream from the middle,
Girlfriend I neva go, (raw)
I rip off panties and pop off (bras)
Yea U.S.B.A.
ask around the block how freaky we, are
I drink Red Bull so I keep stamina
your on of your belly and bust yo brains
Whats my name Prettie Rickie or Pretty boy doing pretty good
Thangs making pretty good change, get pretty good breaks from the pretty
Pretty chicks
Get pretty damn rich, pretty Ricky, Ricky, Ricky and
The Maverix.

(Chorus 2x)
Baby grind on my, relax yo mind take yo time on me,
Let me get deeper shawty ride on me,
Now come and sex me till your body gets weak,
We slow grinding baby.(2x babe)

lay on ur back, let me rub this cream on ya baby
slow motion bout to put this thing on ya baby
starin in ur eyes, bout to lick them thighs, got cha hypnotized, do you feel the vibe?
starin in ur eyes, bout to lick them thighs, got cha hypnotized, do you feel the vibe?
(step 1) ya kissing on me
(step 2) girl im caressing your body
(step 3) now im licking off the whip cream
(step 4) n OOOO your grinding on me

(Chrous 2x)
Baby grind on my, relax yo mind take yo time on me,
Let me get deeper shawty ride on me,
Now come and sex me till your body gets weak,
We slow grinding baby.(2x babe)

slick got more game than a little bit baby girl 5'5 brown eyes with them thick lips
big thighs with slim hips, sugar honey, ice tea baby, baby girl u the shhhhh
and a bag of chips I like to catch her when she coming home
like side with a cherry thong, eat her up like a Sunday cone
but as the morning u got me open, your tongue is choking no joking
coochie swollen, the bedroom smokin, GET SUM AIR UP IN THIS ROOM GIRL
(breathes heavily) if lovin u is wrong I don?t wanna be right
so imma take my time, n do it right cuz we got all night...cuz we got all night baby girl just

(chorus 2x)
Baby grind on my, relax yo mind take yo time on me,
Let me get deeper shawty ride on me,
Now come and sex me till your body gets weak,
We slow grinding baby.(2x babe)

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 01:08:24 GMT

thus far, there is nothing i can say that i enjoy about the single life, it sux ass, especially now when it seems everyone has sum1 but u, thats a big kick in the groin right there....but oh well, gonna have to continue to drag my carcus along and perhaps soon life will fill in it.

i miss the feeling of being able to love sum1 as much as i possibly could and knowin the appreciated ever little thing i did, i miss feeling that love in return, i miss talkin to sum1 everysingle day, knowin that they were there and wanting to talk to me, i miss being able to hold sum1 close and call them "mine", i miss being able to say "i love you" to sum1, and hear it back from anothers lips knowing that they mean it....i am not the type who enjoys bein single and just finding satisfaction in "foolin around" with complete strangers just as long as i get mine...i am the type who loves to be in those long term relationships and putting work into them....whenever there's a fight i make sure we are able to make things work, and i make sacrifices if needed as long as i care enough for that person

i dont wanna rush into another relationship, cuz i know and feel it's disrespectful to something i put 2yrs and 4months of my life into, and having enjoyed it i can safely say it was not a waste of my time, i'm not over her yet, and far from it, i still feel strongly emotionally attached, but my head has cleared up a bit, but regardless i still need time....and luckily i have friends both outside of work, and at work to keep my mind off of things....most of the time, but when i'm home alone, those are the times that are hard....*sigh* i am trying....but this is by far, the hardest thing i'm tryin to accomplish to date in my life....

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 18:23:33 GMT

just outta curiosity wut do people have planned for tomorrow? (saturday)
well besides playin road hockey

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 03:38:57 GMT

so i looked at a car today, really considerin gettin it, but i should really get a few things checked on it b4 i jump into things, cuz thats the type of person i am when i see things i want, just kinda jump into them with eyes shut

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 06:06:41 GMT

well today like every other day has been havin its ups and downs, things look better then come crashin down again, iuno, it's hard, but i'm takin it day by day and tryin to deal wit things, although sumtimes i crack and do sumthin outta character...but anyways about my day...

woke up at 7, got ready for work, worked from like 8:30-1:30, first two customers at 9:15 ordered coffee's and xango's(pronounced "changoes" which is a desert) and i was kinda baffled, but wutever, desert in the mornin sounds good to me, so they wern't there long, and i had a talk wit my manager, just about life and past relationships he's had and my past and w/e, just a good talk, nice to know u can have a boss to talk about anythin, actually i find it that way with all my managers, so thats kinda kool....but w/e did the work thing, only made about $25 cash today, was really slow, then gill from work gave me a ride home in her blue mustang...it's like a 91 or sumthin, one of those "box" lookin ones, so yea, got the ride home from her...

then i got home thinkin maybe i'll put sum shorts and a shirt on and go play ball, but jess came online and well talked for a bit, not the best of talks, just me expressin myself and her sittin back kinda listenin, it was ok, wish that when i was in that "down" mood i would have been talkin to her in person, that way i wudda got more feedback, but w/e, so yea, talked with her for a bit then she went off and did her thing and then tj called and asked if i wanted to go play tennin with him and adam, so i said sure, but before i went i made sure i had sumthin in my stomach, and i didn't wanna have anythin too "heavy" cuz i've really been watchin wut i eat and plus i didn't wanna play on a full stomach, so i grabbed sum bread, toasted it, grabbed two eggs, put em in a bowl and mixed em up with a lil bbq sauce and cajun spice, then threw it in the microwave put it inbetween the toast wit sum cheese and ktchup, and i was good to go...must say, damn good sandwhich, so yea biked over to central to play tennis, had to wait a bit cuz courts were filled up, then me tj and adam played a bit, like i knew i sucked and that tj was better then me, but i didn't feel quite as bad when i found out adam was worse =P so yea played for about 1hr and a half, then we took pff cuz adam had to get home

so when i got home i was feelin down, went to play halo and see if any of my "buddies" were on, and no one was there, so i played a couple games then got off, then went and watched sum tv, watched king of queens...i think thats wut it's called i forget, it's wit the dad of george from seinfeld, but anyways, the main couple had a sumwut similar situation to wut jess claimed to be the reason for why she started to lose feelings, but of course in tv land everythin works out....fuckin tv, pissed me off, lol, so i decided to sleep for a bit, i was tired from bein up late and gettin up early...had about 1hr and a half nap, was pretty good until i was woken up by american idol in the next room....my sis and mom were watchin it....

i feel like i got a problem right now....like i cant stand to watch people kiss, like it makes me feel uncomfortable and makes my stomach turn a bit...maybe cuz i know its sumthin i cant have rite now...iuno, but like seein it in person, on tv, movies, i always turn away or change the channel...even watchin cartoons do it bugs me...hopefully i'll get over it soon, cuz it's just painful to watch and isn't enjoyable at all....

but yea, anyways, woke up from my nap, walked around the house for a bit, then decided i wanted to go to the gym, went there around 9ish, stayed for roughly an hour or so, i did alot more then i've been doin recently, just kinda gotta condition my body for it i guess, i have noticed myself gettin stronger though, like today it felt more rappidly, then gradual, iuno, but deffinately my body isn't used to is the endurance of my muscles, i gotta get that up, cuz sure i'll be able to push the weight, but i muscles wont last as long as they should and i'll give out, they get tired and weak quicker, so yea, just gotta condition that and i should be good...

so yea, anyways, after goin to the gym, i got in the car, checked the cell fone, and for once (cuz this never happens to me....like ever, maybe once a week) i had a missed call, sum1 actually cared to call, lol, like i hardly ever get calls or text msgs from people, so it excited me a bit, found out it was jess, so i called to see wut was up, she just wanted to see how i was doin, told her i was at the gym, and i just intended on stoppin by for a bit, but ended up bein there for like 2hrs or so, sat and talked for awhile, bout serious things, and random things, it wasnt a bad talk, i thought it was a good talk, i got a sub and split it with her (1ft long, 6inch each) and then she continued to work and i goofed around as usual, and i helped her get sum of her shit dun faster, so she would be dun quicker, played sum music, and i goofed around sum more a bit, but all in fun, cuz iuno, like as much as i dislike wuts happenin wit everythin rite now, i am happy when i hang around with her, as rare as that is now...i am tryin to maintain sumsort of relationship wit her...weither it be friendly or serious...i've known her for 5yrs, roughly half of that time we dated, and it would be a shame to throw away a friend of that long, or any friend for that matter, so yea tryin to work things out and keep it kool, although sumtimes we talk and it's rough for me....i just push it away and deal with it alone by myself..i guess thats wut is gonna lead me to my next paragraph...

since me and jess have broken up i've had a problem with one thing...i guess you could call it a drug if you want, cuz it can be addicting...practically everynite i've been goin to bed either buzzin or drunk, and i've been drinkin alone...most people dont get drunk alone, and i always thought that u gotta be pretty depressed to get drunk alone....well i guess thats true, lol, i know this may upset people, but as bad as it sounds, and it's sumthin i dont like to admit, it makes things sumwut easier for me...it makes it easier for me to fall asleep at nite with all the shit on my mind, so ya...i guess i'm kinda hopping for lots of comments, cuz the last few posts i havn;'t been gettin very many, and if that they are few words, so....yea...BIG COMMENTS EVERYONE!

i'm out for now, bye bye